There’s been so much progress since March when I first
broadcast on my laptop with no bells and whistles. Now I’m using OBS so I can incorporate videos
of other people reading scripture and playing music. I’m using an external microphone to get away
from the machine hum that plagues my computer mic. I’m using an app that lets me use my phone as
the camera so the picture is clearer and doesn’t do that color-phasing thing my
computer camera does. I’ve added a ring
light to try to get rid of the odd shadows.
I’ve learned how to incorporate jpg’s of scripture text and song lyrics.
But Sunday, the internet failed. We start broadcasting early so people have
time to find us and say hello to each other in the comments. But suddenly everything froze. So we rebooted the internet and the computer
and the phone, and finally got back to broadcasting almost five minutes
late. So much for the carefully crafted
video of beautiful pictures and music from one of our members for the
preservice. So much for my carefully scripted
welcome sentences. I started with, “Are
you there? Did everybody make it back
on?”
From there, everything went ok, but when it was all done,
instead of feeling joyful about worshipping our amazing God with the faithful
gathering of the beloved congregation, I felt exhausted and unsatisfied. I wanted to YELL at God. AAAARGH!!!! Why?!?! Why do we have these problems? Why can’t everything just be ok?
I know all of us doing online church have had times like
this. I know we’ve been blessed with
good internet connections most of the time.
I know I can find reasons to be thankful in this, but right now, I just
need to shout and groan instead.
AAAAAAUGH!!!
Psalm
6 fits for me right now. Don’t
rebuke me, God. I am weak and in agony.
There’s so much to yell about. Can I just yell?
I know the answer is yes. I know God hears with patience
beyond my understanding.
Thanks, God.
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